INBOX - NHD-C12-KRI-248 - IKARI, SHINJI

[forevalone]

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[forevalone]

FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

Somewhat...

[2leftfeet]

FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
Have you reviewed their files?

[forevalone]

FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

I don't really read people's files.

[2leftfeet]

FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
Why not?

[forevalone]

FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

I don't want to judge them for what might be in their files, just like I wouldn't want them to judge me for what's in mine.

[2leftfeet]

FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
So instead you're throwing away a perfectly good tool for your leadership because you don't want people to think bad things about you?

[forevalone]

_{[Hahahaha...]}

FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

I can still ask them what their strengths and weaknesses are...that accomplishes the same thing more or less, doesn't it?

[2leftfeet]

FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
What if they don't tell you the truth? I'm not saying they won't, but what if?

FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
Or what if the file is wrong or only tells you half the story?

FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
The important part is having all the information you can to make informed decisions. A leader shouldn't shy away from intel, Ikari.

[forevalone]

_{[Why are you so logical Shepard? You're killing him here...]}

FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

I know...you're right. It just feels so invasive.

[2leftfeet]

FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org

It is. But you're doing it to protect your people.

FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org

That's how this works.

[People come first. Who cares what that makes you?]

[forevalone]

_{[Um...Shinji cares. That's half his problem okay. He cares what others think of him and their perception of him. It's scary.]}

FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

And I should do whatever it takes to protect them, right?

[2leftfeet]

FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
In pursuit of your mission goals, yes.

[forevalone]

FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

To what extent is too far?

[2leftfeet]

FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
If we were where I come from, I'd tell you that you have to make that decision on your own. Your people are together for a reason and that reason is fulfilling missions given to you. You can't throw those away. But sometimes completing an assignment isn't worth the price point.

FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
But it's different here. You should ask Armada about acceptable losses.

[forevalone]

FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

I don't want to be responsible for someone's death. I don't want that on my hands.

[2leftfeet]

FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
Do you think anyone wants that?

[forevalone]

FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

Monsters do.

_{[Not the literal ones, of course, or your bump in the night variety, but the ones who disguise themselves as people, who were born human but have no shred of humanity left inside them to care.]}

[2leftfeet]

FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
Then don't be one of those.

[forevalone]

FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

It's not that simple.

[2leftfeet]

FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org

You're not a monster as long as you stay angry when people die.

[forevalone]

FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

Anger never solves anything, even if it's unavoidable.

_{[Shinji's learned that the hard way.]}

[2leftfeet]

FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
Then stay upset. Whatever you want to call it but as long as you're feeling something, that keeps you accountable.

FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
Monsters don't think they're accountable for anything.

[forevalone]

FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

...What was the scariest monster you've ever met?

[2leftfeet]

FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
A man who thinks he can control bigger ones.

[forevalone]

FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

Was he able to?