Shinji "Shy Bi & Ready 2 Cry" Ikari [ 碇 シンジ ] (
forevalone) wrote2014-05-06 12:20 am
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It is. But you're doing it to protect your people.
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
That's how this works.
[People come first. Who cares what that makes you?]
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FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org
And I should do whatever it takes to protect them, right?
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In pursuit of your mission goals, yes.
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To what extent is too far?
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If we were where I come from, I'd tell you that you have to make that decision on your own. Your people are together for a reason and that reason is fulfilling missions given to you. You can't throw those away. But sometimes completing an assignment isn't worth the price point.
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
But it's different here. You should ask Armada about acceptable losses.
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I don't want to be responsible for someone's death. I don't want that on my hands.
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Do you think anyone wants that?
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Monsters do.
[Not the literal ones, of course, or your bump in the night variety, but the ones who disguise themselves as people, who were born human but have no shred of humanity left inside them to care.]
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Then don't be one of those.
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It's not that simple.
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You're not a monster as long as you stay angry when people die.
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Anger never solves anything, even if it's unavoidable.
[Shinji's learned that the hard way.]
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Then stay upset. Whatever you want to call it but as long as you're feeling something, that keeps you accountable.
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
Monsters don't think they're accountable for anything.
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...What was the scariest monster you've ever met?
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A man who thinks he can control bigger ones.
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Was he able to?
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FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
No.
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...I know a monster like that too. Only he doesn't just think it, he can.
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What's your point?
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How do you stop a monster like that? How do you stop from being controlled by a monster like that?
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Is this "monster" here?
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No.
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Then if it were me?
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
I'd worry about the answer to that question when it seemed like it might be a problem.
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
You're going to have plenty of other issues, Ikari. Don't torture yourself over hypotheticals.
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I'm sorry.
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FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
For what?
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