INBOX - NHD-C12-KRI-248 - IKARI, SHINJI

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FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

No?

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FROM: nagisa.kaworu@cdc.org

Does wanting to be intimate with someone upset you?

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FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

I only want that with you.

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FROM: nagisa.kaworu@cdc.org

You aren't attracted to the other people you love?

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FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

There are different kinds of love, you know. That's like saying "I love my mom" and because of that I'm attracted to her.

FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

It doesn't work like that.

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FROM: nagisa.kaworu@cdc.org

First?

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FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

First what?

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FROM: nagisa.kaworu@cdc.org

The First Child.

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FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

What about her?

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FROM: nagisa.kaworu@cdc.org

With me, and not with First?

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FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

Of course not with her. She's a clone of my mom, Kaworu-kun! That's sick!

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[#rekt, Lilith.

First is sterile, so genetics shouldn't really matter. She loved Shinji and wanted to be close to him. But if Shinji loves her in some (???) way, he doesn't want to be close to her.]

FROM: nagisa.kaworu@cdc.org

She has a soul.

FROM: nagisa.kaworu@cdc.org

Then, you feel for her in one way only.

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FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

If anything...I would consider her to be a sister to me. It's complicated, Kaworu-kun.

FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

But I definitely do not want to share the same things with her that I do with you.

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FROM: nagisa.kaworu@cdc.org

It's all right.

[He says it as much for his own benefit as for Shinji's.]

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FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

What do you mean?

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FROM: nagisa.kaworu@cdc.org

Whatever you want, it's all right.

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FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

I want you.

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FROM: nagisa.kaworu@cdc.org

Shinji-kun, you already have me. That's not going to change.

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FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

I want you to want me too.

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[Sometimes Kaworu has to sit quietly and remind himself that Shinji hasn't been through all this in the same way he has. He doesn't know, or remember. It's not his fault.]

FROM: nagisa.kaworu@cdc.org

I'm here for you.

[He means that in pretty much every way possible.]

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FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

...I know.

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[...

Kaworu knows what it's like to be frustrated, too.]

FROM: nagisa.kaworu@cdc.org

When we're together next, I would like to hold your hand.

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FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

I want you to.

FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

...What else do you want?

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[Shinji, please. This is dangerous territory.]

FROM: nagisa.kaworu@cdc.org

To lie with you.

[Under the stars. Not Biblically. Not Biblically...]

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FROM: ikari.shinji@cdc.org

And do what?