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_{[He's a terrible person. He's disgusting. A coward. Pathetic. He couldn't even save just one person. A person he cared about at that. Now here he was, throwing himself at his best friend, the person he loved most of all and yet knew very little about relatively. Does it feel good? It does, but he feels guilty. This is something he's wanted so badly but this isn't how he had wanted it to play out. He's just too beside himself to care. It's not a direct answer to Kaworu's question, but it's what he gives him.]}

I love you.

_{[Kaworu is gentle and concerned, everything Shinji wants and needs but he's not perfect. Shinji's been dimly aware of this but he pushes it aside when it doesn't suit him. Like right now. All that matters right now is that Kaworu is someone he can cling to. Someone he can squeeze comfort out of.]}