No...you don't understand...I-I was there when she died, Kaworu-kun...there was a hole in her chest and she was bleeding to death and I couldn't...

_{[His throat is tight; Kaworu's hands are gentle on his face, but they're not helping. They can't erase what he's seen and experienced, no matter how much he wishes they would.]}

I had to bury her, Kaworu-kun...I had to bury Ellie...