[It isn't fair, he wants to say. It isn't fair at all. Kaworu has no idea how badly he wants contact, how desperate he is to be touched by him, even if he's equally as frightened by the thought. He may not be clueless, but it certainly feels that way. It feels one-sided, as if he's forcing the other boy into returning every gesture, every little touch. These are things he doesn't want to force though. He wants Kaworu to want him. He wants it to come naturally.
It isn't just emotional for Shinji. It's physical too, which makes things all the more complicated.]
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It isn't just emotional for Shinji. It's physical too, which makes things all the more complicated.]
I am shy, Kaworu-kun...you know that...