I also hate— [He smooths over Shinji's hair, over his forehead.] To let you down. [It's why Black Box was such an awful thing, and why he's so wearied.] There's no way to have a relationship with others without some pain coming from that relationship. You will be hurt by people, and you'll even hurt them, too. But you'll also find joy, and love, and strength in them. And they'll find the same things in you. That's where I find all those things — in you, Shinji-kun.